I’d Rather Be Known For My Weaknesses

In a world where everyone is looking to be recognized for the thing that they may say or the thing that they may do, for a world that is structured around spontaneous fame for any small thing a person may say or do, for a world that jumps at every opportunity to praise a person for hero ship of any kind, or demonize a person for any type of crime or act that they commit, "I would rather be known in this world for my weaknesses" rather than my strengths.

My Strengths are no different than any other quality man or quality person on earth, I’m a good thinker, I’m a person of convictions, I’m a person that loves to read, I’m a person that loves life, I’m a planner, I’m a observer, I’m a respectful person, I’m a decisive person, I’m a physically strong person, I’m a person of great character, I’m a person that believes in giving without want and I’m a person that loves to show love to the ones that love me.

However, for the people that know me and love me the most, my kids, my mother, my brother, my sister, my friends and the ones that talk to me on a daily bases, my strengths are the things that cause them to maintain a distance from me.

It’s my discipline, my focus, my inner great strength and great character that cause the ones that I love the most, to avoid me. It’s the traits of strength and confidence, it’s the traits of resolve, it’s the traits of moral conviction that cause the ones that I talk to each day to avoid me.

Today is “Father’s Day” and after having conversations with my Son & Daughter, I realize that their gesture of calling me was a tough thing to do. I realize that my kids called me because it is “Father’s Day”, but, I also accepted and acknowledged that my kids would rather not speak with me due to my “strengths” and it’s my “strengths” that I have great pride in, yet it’s those strengths within me that hurt the people that I love.

Who is right and who is wrong?

Thus, although I love the person that I am, I acknowledge and realize that it’s my strengths that cause others to feel uncomfortable around me or to talk to me or be at my side.

Would I be more appreciated or would my family members be more willing to interact with me if I were an alcoholic because I love my beer, or would my family members and friends feel more confident to lecture me because I like to smoke weed on occasions which causes me to not be able to find a job, would I be more acceptable to all if I were a person who has bad credit allowing others to have a need to help me because I can’t do certain things for myself as a result of having bad credit?

Yet, if my traits of weaknesses were to control me to allow my family and friends to feel more willing to interact with me, I then become a Burdon in their hearts, causing them, then, to despise me equally, as they do for my being a strong person, yet more willing to interact with me with a sense of positivity.

On this day, a Father’s Day, I will say for this specific moment, I’d rather have my weakness traits prevail, just to feel the love of my family because they are concerned and love me, as appose to avoiding me because I’m a individually strong person. Understanding that this moment of weakness will leave in a minute, I wanted to write these thoughts down for my own individual reasons.

Felton B
6/19/11